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Monday, 30 November 2009

  • Time heals all....

    time fixes all...heals alll.......then why cant we sometimes let go of that nasty feeling inside our tummy....that nauseating horrible panic filled feeling........why do dark memories always seem to drag us back to that corner of fear? Does it mean that we r weak? or we havent healed yet? will this ever go away?

Sunday, 15 November 2009

  • Silly Silly Us Humans....

    Reading back on what you write is amazing not only does it allow you to reflect on what you felt and remember that exact moment but it shows u how much you have grown.....

    Then I asked....What will i choose? Who will I become?

    Seems Silly to ask now....who i will be will always evolve and change...esp being away from home and closed ones life is always going to change .....things that matter now wont matter then....its a bit of a guessin game to reallyy do anything....like its been pointed out....Dont Stress About the Future...Its pointlessssssssss!

    Aim ....project and focus ALL on the PRESENT....be HAPPY NOW...be successfull NOW be Yourself!!!

    Why why why  do we need a reminder on these self explanatory BASIC commands that we should follow?
    because its the simple things that are easy to forget....we tend to take them for granded.....its the Grand stuff we give importance tooo ....in a way its good but on a large scale ....I have got to over simply my life....Easy isnt always the best way out.....learning from it all means KNOWING, NOTICING even the Small Things in life...

    I have a long way to go for self improvement.....I know that :) put words into practice is the Next Step!

    This blog was a bit rushed....Must redit!

      Tip: Remember the Good times they are your fuel for motivation!
    also i have got to learn nlp techniques and get my brain rewired!

    Quote of the day:

    We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore,
    is not an act but a habit.
    Aristotle




Wednesday, 19 August 2009

Tuesday, 18 August 2009

  • Double standards

    When you know being positive is going to get u places...when u kno wat u gota do to make a relationship work...then why does that ugly doubt pop in? like he wont treat me rite or wat if he doesnt love me fully after we get married? or willl he put me first or will he b selfish when the time comes? I know things take time...i know you need to get to kno the person more and distances make it harder 

    Y do i get scared then? I want it all....all that i had....forever n more.... my fears...wat if...wat if i cant get it all ...
    *Sighs our choices define who we are....and i kno that all to well rite now 

    I  miss him *sighs*

    one hurt and its bak to square one.....relationship fobia lol ugly great word to define this moment....
    Why do we torture ourselves when we dont need to? and Esp why do I need to act like a wack job so emotional rite now Ah i dont want to go down that pit and dont need to go down that pit....
    The present is all that matters then why do we let our past shape or frighten our future? Why cant we will in the present?and happily? 
    i wonder somtimes if its easier to run away from it all atleast then therez no hurt....but then there will ALWAYS be longing....
    So the real Q is what's more painful to love and to have lost or to love and to hurt?
    OR how about to love and to sacrifice it away?
    > Wonder how many ppl been thro that one? thats wat i really want to know....not many seem to talk abot it yet so many seem to know abot it....
    so i conclude i have double standards..... on one side i kno excatly WAT to do ...how to do it...read up ...learned...asked...watever ...
    and the other side...i bottle up...i freeze....i doubt...i freak out....i get weak....

    Life is about making choices...thats the most realist and simplist defination of life...but its the process of makin choices that makes life so hard.....like everyone says "Easier Said than Done"
    Some times i envy Cold hearted ppl...they feel nothing...theyr so thick....it takes ALOT to hurt them...if only icould stop caring...stop caring SO MUCH...about everyone and EVERYTHING....
    wonder who would i become then? better or worse? for me or others? life is about makin choices...what will i choose? who i am today will it last? 

    Adivce for today: Love ur self & others with an open heart and unconditionally...(there is NO room for doubt..do it ONCE and do it RIGHT..GIVE IT ur all just like any job u do in life).....everything else will fall into place

    "To Fear love is to fear life, and those who Fear life are already three parts Dead." Bertrand Russell (Marriage and Morals)


Sunday, 16 August 2009

  • So much to say....

    writing is so so so so helpful and beautiful in its intrisinc way TILL someone reads it and destroys its privacy and its meaning! Argh so im hoping this blog remains a blog I dont need this to be an open dairy with an open identity :) just so i can say the ugly turth and be realllllllly really honest....
    we all know how much self satisfaction that can give once in a while
    Most importantly this is For me...  and just me 
    Rite Step 1 cleared objective mentioned ....now where to start and what to start *Sighs* 
    well for starters I have this huge deadline approaching and i got 5 days to start Woah :) talk about time managment and here I am tryin this out! Anyways i feel like after yrs n yrs of certian experiences i can come and write about them and to my own surprise I feel like I am growing up yet I know this is Just the beginning and there is so much more to know and learn and experience. Maybe thats why I want to record ME before Life Hits me! and anything changes. I want to be able to go back and read everything that I wrote silly things stupid advices...whatever it maybe...  
    lol that just sounds like I talk alot! :P 

    well Day 1: today isnt much eventfull and I havent learned anything new other than I HATE reading Law books and that I am Falling asleep reading Dr Beever's fabulous book its just HOORAY! lol dont hate me sir but really aRgh wish u taught it better atleast! 
    anyways Summer is going gr8 running fast out! but I am being the laziest slug in the world wasting it away! just wanting to do nothing since when did i become a retired old hag! Esp becoz i have SO MUCH TO DO! 
    I hate me! I love signing up for stuff just to push myself and keep busy or else I KNOW I willl be a SLUG! 
    What do I do?????? And then when social obligations come such as CHILLING yea i get rite up and go ahead! but why do I feel guilty? Why cant I just do my work on time and then relax with friends? My life's missions seems to be learn BETTER TIME MANAGMENT and STOP procrastinating <<<<<<<< Evil Enemy #1 & then silly females lol

    Day 1 Tip/ Advice/ Mantra!: Work Work and Work but only on time like someone once said
    work 8hrs play 8 hrs and sleep 8 hrs :)
  • Hello World! so lets see how this things works and if its any use :) New smiles for New beginnings & New things :)